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Mother of a Black Child

Through the heart of the University of Nevada, Las Vegas, is a straight line of stamped concrete—a road wide enough to park a bus on—labeled the “Free Speech Zone.” I know this because a non-profit organization with which I volunteered … Continue reading

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Black and White in Atlanta

The subway platform is everything that subway platforms are in the inner cities—it is grimy, unclearly lit in the night, the air is stale and smells of grease. We are past, what is known in some circles as, the respectable … Continue reading

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Becoming Yours

Sometimes I am angry with your father. Not my husband, and not the man that you run to in the evenings as he walks through our front door. “Daddy!” you call out, as you rush toward his legs. Not him. … Continue reading

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Anniversary

“So how long have you had the twins?” the investigator asks. The investigator isn’t what I expected. She’s smaller and plainer and more, what’s the word? Is it sneaky? Stealthy? Deadly? I’m afraid of her more than I was the … Continue reading

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90 and Seven Days

Deidre. That’s what I wanted to re-name you. Deidre. And you probably recognize the name, because I have sang it to you in a thousand lullabies and occasionally yelled it when you reached into that desk drawer with all the … Continue reading

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Driving Their Mother

The doctor’s office waiting room is filled with the usual mixture of white fluorescent lights humming overhead, the ambient noise of ringing phones, the swoosh of turning magazine pages and the interrupting squeak of plastic chairs as waiting patients shift … Continue reading

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Loving With One Hand Open

At Department of Family Services parental visitation facility, the foster parent waiting lounge is not beige and it is not brown and it is not pink. I don’t really know what color sits so thick on the cinderblock walls. On … Continue reading

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Miss Heather Needs a Tissue

“Honey, when is the last time you ate?” asks the caseworker. “I’m not…” I say, glancing around like the answer is somewhere on the walls of the hallway in building fifteen of the Nevada Child Welfare office. “I don’t know.” … Continue reading

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What My Parents Taught Me

“I don’t know what your parents taught you…” It is not a matter of question. The words drive themselves out of her mouth and across the phone line where they find me staring at my reflection in the hallway mirror. … Continue reading

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Leaving Georgia

Husband and I drove out of town in our SUV packed floor to ceiling with all the miscellany we couldn’t fit on the moving truck plus our two big mutts of dogs panting furiously in the summer heat. A few … Continue reading

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